today
Today was a good day after being somewhat lost and driven to do "something", just not knowing where to begin. So I prayed and journaled and thought and decided to just do something...anything that was off my list of want to's....I do have quit a list you know! Well, I've been heavily on the thinking process of schooling and what I should do for my kindergartener coming up and my first grader that is truly pushed to hard. We start kindy at six years and move at a fairly quick pace with this curriculum I choose a few years ago. Little miss was doing swell until lately. I really feel that these workbook work way to fast leaving her feeling frustrated and crying almost every day, and when she doesn't cry on a particular day it because she decides to just skip what she struggles with. So I've been very interested in Waldorf for quite a few years and even tried do dabble a bit a couple of years ago but just never fully dove in and immersed. I don't know why, uncertainty maybe, money possibly, but probably more just intimidation mostly and maybe a little feeling like I've raised so many of the children already in such a different way that it seemed a bit silly and like a waste of time.
I've really had such a heart to heart with myself lately and how so much of life just keeps right on truckin and I feel that I don't live how I REALLY want to live, or embrace the way my heart feels mostly pulled. I feel that we are constantly in a rush to meet my own dead lines in the day and I'm not spending the time the children really need from me with them. I'm missing the being present fully in my littles because I'm so wrapped up in the dailies and the bigs schedules, that I truly feel, one day I'm going to wake up and my littles will be grown up, raised by just getting by, instead of cherished and fully loved in actions not just words.
TodayI've decided to start the change I want to see...one action at a time.
Today we worked on being together, while I worked on writing out our daily verses and rythm they colored, drew, and told stories and asked questions, and started to memorize the verses already... of course, they have to know whacha writtin mama? and then they want to learn it now.
Today we had yummy "healthy" fudge for a morning snack.
Today we made math gnomes for fun math instead of struggling/crying math.
Today we made weather people ~ something I've wanted to make for years!
Honestly not much else got done, those gnomes and weather people took ALL day, somewhere in there a baby boy was nursed and meals were fixed, tantrums were delt with and fights broken up, a bath was given to a very quick little baby that got to the mud before one could catch him, boo boos were kissed and of course as with this many people in a small space lots of chatter and jokes and laughter.
Blessings,
JM
I've really had such a heart to heart with myself lately and how so much of life just keeps right on truckin and I feel that I don't live how I REALLY want to live, or embrace the way my heart feels mostly pulled. I feel that we are constantly in a rush to meet my own dead lines in the day and I'm not spending the time the children really need from me with them. I'm missing the being present fully in my littles because I'm so wrapped up in the dailies and the bigs schedules, that I truly feel, one day I'm going to wake up and my littles will be grown up, raised by just getting by, instead of cherished and fully loved in actions not just words.
TodayI've decided to start the change I want to see...one action at a time.
Today we worked on being together, while I worked on writing out our daily verses and rythm they colored, drew, and told stories and asked questions, and started to memorize the verses already... of course, they have to know whacha writtin mama? and then they want to learn it now.
Today we had yummy "healthy" fudge for a morning snack.
Today we made math gnomes for fun math instead of struggling/crying math.
Today we made weather people ~ something I've wanted to make for years!
Honestly not much else got done, those gnomes and weather people took ALL day, somewhere in there a baby boy was nursed and meals were fixed, tantrums were delt with and fights broken up, a bath was given to a very quick little baby that got to the mud before one could catch him, boo boos were kissed and of course as with this many people in a small space lots of chatter and jokes and laughter.
Blessings,
JM
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